Monday, December 1, 2008

Me,Myself, and I

Who am I?
Who do I aspire to be?

Over the past few weeks, these questions have more than usual troubled my mind. I'm young, and I understand that: I still have plenty of time to find answers. High school in my eyes is a sort of trial-and-error period, in which many feel they hit a proving ground. A lot of people think they know who they want to be, but can they realistically look ten years to the future and say, "That'll be me." ?(incorrect english.)

I'm not sure why it's just hitting me now. I took some time, and looked at myself in third person. For some reason, I wasn't quite satisfied. But that's exactly my point: I don't think I'll ever really know who I want to be for sure. In the meantime, I've been taking interest in other people. It takes up most of my time, and thought. I would really like to know how other people function internally(not literally, but mentally). I can spend days analyzing people's habits, manner, mental workings: I'm just utterly fascinated by it. I think it would supplement my own train bike of thought, until it can run without the training wheels.

Let's see. Who am I now:
My mindset-
I try to love everyone, unless they give me reason not to. I figure interested and interesting people will return the favor, and the rest I'm not sure I should take interest in.

The Facts-
I'm young, and unsure of who I want to be.
I'm always looking for new means of expressing myself.
I pay attention to other people very closely.
There's another side of me only a few people know. If you're interested, show it!

(What I think are) My strengths-
Perception and Deep Thought.
Good gut instincts, which I follow to the letter.
Outspoken.
Absolute honesty.

My weaknesses-
Quick to make decisions.
Quick to care too much.
Have a hard time forgiving myself.
Have a hard time building trust.

Well that's me for now.
Who are you?




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